Chapter 12 (第2/2页)
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t least times every day. People to say came over, and t alloo let t in talked a little, boto meet her gaze.
t took tes to finally get to t. Eric o apologize, imagine able, felt emotion Id ever heard him express.
"Youve got t of anyone Ive ever met," o Jamie, ;and even took it franted and alo you, I ed to let you kno; t;Youre t person Ill probably ever know.”
As ing back ears and sniffling, Margaret o o speak. ears from ood sloure of fiveness. Eric to o cry openly as sly caressed o ime as Eric sobbed until oo exed to cry anymore.
t s turn, and sly thing.
o leave, ts and looked at Jamie one more time, as if to remember t ted to t tiful, and I kno the same way.
"; Eric said on t;Ill be praying for you, and so ; toted me on t;You too," chem.
Later, elling us, ed over $400 dollars for the orphanage.
I ed for the miracle.
It e.
In early February taking o tened pain sime ting ter tors cut bace to ensified, and sometimes even raising her arm made her grimace.
Leukemia is a disease of t runs its course t a persons body. terally no escape from it as long as kept beating.
But t of . In t for a ime s. S back to ting the dizziness in place of pain.
Still he Bible.
ed Jamie, I ually o carry ed to tio me about it, ly meant.
I of time, and my ill tellihing more I could do.
On February 14, Valentines Day, Jamie picked out a passage from t meant a lot to old me t if s ed read at it said:Love is alient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or ceited. It is never rude or selfis does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in ot deligrut is alo excuse, to trust, to o endure wever es.
Jamie ruest essence of t very description.
ter, ure sliged s to see.
Eastern Nortiful and special part of try, blessed emperate part, off t, y-four miles long and nearly a mile ure, running from east to , line a ness spectacular sunrises and sus every day of taking place over ty Atlantic O.
Jamie eamer Pier as t souted off into tand told o . I could see our breatwo of o every one of mine.
I o support Jamie as ood ter tree t umn-but I k .
In time tered moon began its seeming rise from ting a prism of liger, splitting itself into a t parts, eaciful t. At exactly t, ting te dire, turning ts gates a all its beauty escape its urned golden silver as ting colors reflected off it, ers rippling and sparkling , t like time. tio loself, casting its glois slo upurned a t s, before finally being tars.
Jamie cigurning to blad t tant soutook ly kissed bothen, finally, her lips.
"t," I said, "is exactly you.”
A er Jamies trips to tal became mular, alted t s to stay t. "I to die at ; do anyt to accept her wishes.
At least for time being.
"Ive been t t fe; I said to her.
e ting in to lose its luster. Yet blue eyes, were as lovely as ever.
I dont tiful.
"Ive been t too," she said.
"You kne day in Miss Garbers class t I o do t you. me and smiled?”
S;Yes.”
"And I fall in love, but you kne I o, didnt you?”
S;Yes.”
"how did you know?”
S ans togets, c ble the windows.
"old you t I prayed for you," so me, "alking about?”
tinued, speeding up as Marg more medie for pain, and s too siaco keep doo tal to stay, despite her wishes.
It .
My faton, ill in session. Apparently my motold if e ely, as ay in ason forever.
old too deep, t it oo late to do anything.
"t about your family, or even about Reverend Sullivan, or anyt ," so o accept ;t our son, tle girl who needs our help.
And yoing to find a o help her.”
I dont knoo or . All I kno Jamie , cime nurses wor peeked in on imes a day.
Jamie o stay at home.
t nig time in my life.
"Do you s?" I asked ube in ion s. So be supported by someone else.
"e all s, Landon," s;but Ive led a wonderful life.”
"?" I cried out, uo ;its o you?”
Senderly at me.
"t; sted as s;could be better.”
Despite my tears I laugely felt guilty for doing so. I o be supp t on.
"But ot, Ive been aug God. I look bad kno I couldnt ried to ; S my eyes.
"Ive even fallen in love and had someone love me back.”
I kissed , t against my cheek.
"Its not fair," I said.
S answer.
"Are you still afraid?" I asked.
"Yes.”
"Im afraid, too," I said.
"I know. And Im sorry.”
" I do?" I asked desperately. "I dont knoo do anymore.”
"ill you read to me?”
I kno t page breaking down.
Please, Lord, tell me o do!
"Mom?" I said later t night.
"Yes?”
e ting on to , I slipped out of before I did, I kissed ly on t ions in me, kno I loved er but also kno Id broken one of t he door.
I couldnt blame really. I found t spending time o feel by aug fe as-not ts or iions-o judge ot all t o my mothe sofa.
"Do you t; I asked.
It time Id asked ion, but times.
"Im not sure I uand ; she said, frowning.
"I mean- youre supposed to do?”
"Are you asking me about spending time h Jamie?”
I ill fused. "Sort of. I kno t . . . sometime alk a . . .”
I paused, and my mot for me.
"You think you should be doing more?”
I nodded.
"I dont kno t," sly.
"the way I do?”
Stle closer on tcogether.
"I ts because youre frigrying, tio get ry, things seem.”
"Is to stop feeling this way?”
S ;No," sly, "t.”
t day Jamie could out of bed. Because soo o , he Bible in her room.
Ses.
Anot by and Jamie greeadily worse, her body weakening.
Bedridden, s like a little girl again.
"Jamie," I pleaded, "w I do for you?”
Jamie, my s Jamie, ime noalked to move at ths were rapid and weak.
I sat beside tcime, to my , feeling the boniness of her fingers.
Part of me ed to cry rig instead I laid uro face the window.
o someone like er lesson in of t me to fall in love sometion? t, t to tions hey had been before.
Outside, t of t ernoon sunlig signs of nature ing back to life. trees outside ing for just t moment to uncoil and open to yet another summer season.
On tstand by ion of items t Jamie o . tograpanding outside of sc day of kindergarten; tion of cards t c. Sigop of tack.
ritten in crayon, it said simply:Please get better soon. I miss you.
It mas Eve. timents, but the child, Roger, had drawn. hed drawn a bird, s above a rainbow.
C bear to look any furt tack back tlass. I reacicle and sa it ter , I saure t aken of two of us.
It seemed so long ago. I brougiearer to my face. As I stared, I remembered t o pass. I kne. Instead, I sa ime I sig aside the clipping.
till lay open to read some more. Eventually I came across anot it said:I am not anding you, but I to test ty of your love by paring it to tness of others.
t as I to cry, t suddenly became clear.
God I o do.
I couldnt to ter, even if Id ook every scut I could, rag tting t t too play, and alticularly good ate, on toppable, propelled by w I o do.
I didnt care ed care, eitered t to catco toward his office.
looked up e me in, o obsessively. tered across tre traig t about Jamie; t came to cry.
"Reverend?" I said softly.
ans I in anyway.
"Id like to be alone," he croaked.
en, as es described in Davids Psalms. o keep up s around Jamie, and tress of doing so was wearing him down.
I marc up to me before turning back to the window.
"Please," o me. one ed, as t rengto front even me.
"Id like to talk to you," I said firmly. "I ask unless it ant.”
sig in t in before, ake Jamie out for New Years Eve.
ened as I told was on my mind.
turo me. I dont kno say no. Instead urohe window.
Even oo so speak.
Again I ran, again I didnt tire, my purpose givirengto go on. knog, and t to see w .
Before she could speak, I did.
"Is s; I asked, euperrified at time.
"Yes," tiously. "hen she woke up, she wondered where you were.”
I apologized for my dis mind leaving us alone. I o Jamies room, partially closing t me knoing.
"; s, "thank you for ing back.”
I pulled up a ext to aking igomac to cry.
"I ; I said.
"I kno t seem to anymore.”
"Its okay, really.”
Sed ly off t, then leaned forward and kissed her cheek as well.
"Do you love me?" I asked her.
S;Yes.”
"Do you me to be ; As I asked my beginning to race.
"Of course I do.”
"ill you do somethen?”
Sures. "I dont kno; she said.
"But if you could, would you?”
I ot adequately describe tensity of t moment.
Love, anger, sadness, oget me curiously, and my breat Id never felt as strongly for anot t moment. As I returned ion made me I could make all t been possible, I o tell s, but tions inside me.
"Yes," s someill full of promise. "I would.”
Finally getting trol of myself, I kissed my o ly running my fingers over tness of leness I saw in .
My t began to tig as I said, I k it o cure I ed to do was give sed.
It o do all along.
Jamie, I uood t o find. Sold me t outside Mr. Jenkinss office, t he play.
I smiled softly, and surned my affe squeeze of my rusting me in to do. Enced, I leaned closer and took a deep breat floh.
"ill you marry me?”
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t least times every day. People to say came over, and t alloo let t in talked a little, boto meet her gaze.
t took tes to finally get to t. Eric o apologize, imagine able, felt emotion Id ever heard him express.
"Youve got t of anyone Ive ever met," o Jamie, ;and even took it franted and alo you, I ed to let you kno; t;Youre t person Ill probably ever know.”
As ing back ears and sniffling, Margaret o o speak. ears from ood sloure of fiveness. Eric to o cry openly as sly caressed o ime as Eric sobbed until oo exed to cry anymore.
t s turn, and sly thing.
o leave, ts and looked at Jamie one more time, as if to remember t ted to t tiful, and I kno the same way.
"; Eric said on t;Ill be praying for you, and so ; toted me on t;You too," chem.
Later, elling us, ed over $400 dollars for the orphanage.
I ed for the miracle.
It e.
In early February taking o tened pain sime ting ter tors cut bace to ensified, and sometimes even raising her arm made her grimace.
Leukemia is a disease of t runs its course t a persons body. terally no escape from it as long as kept beating.
But t of . In t for a ime s. S back to ting the dizziness in place of pain.
Still he Bible.
ed Jamie, I ually o carry ed to tio me about it, ly meant.
I of time, and my ill tellihing more I could do.
On February 14, Valentines Day, Jamie picked out a passage from t meant a lot to old me t if s ed read at it said:Love is alient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or ceited. It is never rude or selfis does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in ot deligrut is alo excuse, to trust, to o endure wever es.
Jamie ruest essence of t very description.
ter, ure sliged s to see.
Eastern Nortiful and special part of try, blessed emperate part, off t, y-four miles long and nearly a mile ure, running from east to , line a ness spectacular sunrises and sus every day of taking place over ty Atlantic O.
Jamie eamer Pier as t souted off into tand told o . I could see our breatwo of o every one of mine.
I o support Jamie as ood ter tree t umn-but I k .
In time tered moon began its seeming rise from ting a prism of liger, splitting itself into a t parts, eaciful t. At exactly t, ting te dire, turning ts gates a all its beauty escape its urned golden silver as ting colors reflected off it, ers rippling and sparkling , t like time. tio loself, casting its glois slo upurned a t s, before finally being tars.
Jamie cigurning to blad t tant soutook ly kissed bothen, finally, her lips.
"t," I said, "is exactly you.”
A er Jamies trips to tal became mular, alted t s to stay t. "I to die at ; do anyt to accept her wishes.
At least for time being.
"Ive been t t fe; I said to her.
e ting in to lose its luster. Yet blue eyes, were as lovely as ever.
I dont tiful.
"Ive been t too," she said.
"You kne day in Miss Garbers class t I o do t you. me and smiled?”
S;Yes.”
"And I fall in love, but you kne I o, didnt you?”
S;Yes.”
"how did you know?”
S ans togets, c ble the windows.
"old you t I prayed for you," so me, "alking about?”
tinued, speeding up as Marg more medie for pain, and s too siaco keep doo tal to stay, despite her wishes.
It .
My faton, ill in session. Apparently my motold if e ely, as ay in ason forever.
old too deep, t it oo late to do anything.
"t about your family, or even about Reverend Sullivan, or anyt ," so o accept ;t our son, tle girl who needs our help.
And yoing to find a o help her.”
I dont knoo or . All I kno Jamie , cime nurses wor peeked in on imes a day.
Jamie o stay at home.
t nig time in my life.
"Do you s?" I asked ube in ion s. So be supported by someone else.
"e all s, Landon," s;but Ive led a wonderful life.”
"?" I cried out, uo ;its o you?”
Senderly at me.
"t; sted as s;could be better.”
Despite my tears I laugely felt guilty for doing so. I o be supp t on.
"But ot, Ive been aug God. I look bad kno I couldnt ried to ; S my eyes.
"Ive even fallen in love and had someone love me back.”
I kissed , t against my cheek.
"Its not fair," I said.
S answer.
"Are you still afraid?" I asked.
"Yes.”
"Im afraid, too," I said.
"I know. And Im sorry.”
" I do?" I asked desperately. "I dont knoo do anymore.”
"ill you read to me?”
I kno t page breaking down.
Please, Lord, tell me o do!
"Mom?" I said later t night.
"Yes?”
e ting on to , I slipped out of before I did, I kissed ly on t ions in me, kno I loved er but also kno Id broken one of t he door.
I couldnt blame really. I found t spending time o feel by aug fe as-not ts or iions-o judge ot all t o my mothe sofa.
"Do you t; I asked.
It time Id asked ion, but times.
"Im not sure I uand ; she said, frowning.
"I mean- youre supposed to do?”
"Are you asking me about spending time h Jamie?”
I ill fused. "Sort of. I kno t . . . sometime alk a . . .”
I paused, and my mot for me.
"You think you should be doing more?”
I nodded.
"I dont kno t," sly.
"the way I do?”
Stle closer on tcogether.
"I ts because youre frigrying, tio get ry, things seem.”
"Is to stop feeling this way?”
S ;No," sly, "t.”
t day Jamie could out of bed. Because soo o , he Bible in her room.
Ses.
Anot by and Jamie greeadily worse, her body weakening.
Bedridden, s like a little girl again.
"Jamie," I pleaded, "w I do for you?”
Jamie, my s Jamie, ime noalked to move at ths were rapid and weak.
I sat beside tcime, to my , feeling the boniness of her fingers.
Part of me ed to cry rig instead I laid uro face the window.
o someone like er lesson in of t me to fall in love sometion? t, t to tions hey had been before.
Outside, t of t ernoon sunlig signs of nature ing back to life. trees outside ing for just t moment to uncoil and open to yet another summer season.
On tstand by ion of items t Jamie o . tograpanding outside of sc day of kindergarten; tion of cards t c. Sigop of tack.
ritten in crayon, it said simply:Please get better soon. I miss you.
It mas Eve. timents, but the child, Roger, had drawn. hed drawn a bird, s above a rainbow.
C bear to look any furt tack back tlass. I reacicle and sa it ter , I saure t aken of two of us.
It seemed so long ago. I brougiearer to my face. As I stared, I remembered t o pass. I kne. Instead, I sa ime I sig aside the clipping.
till lay open to read some more. Eventually I came across anot it said:I am not anding you, but I to test ty of your love by paring it to tness of others.
t as I to cry, t suddenly became clear.
God I o do.
I couldnt to ter, even if Id ook every scut I could, rag tting t t too play, and alticularly good ate, on toppable, propelled by w I o do.
I didnt care ed care, eitered t to catco toward his office.
looked up e me in, o obsessively. tered across tre traig t about Jamie; t came to cry.
"Reverend?" I said softly.
ans I in anyway.
"Id like to be alone," he croaked.
en, as es described in Davids Psalms. o keep up s around Jamie, and tress of doing so was wearing him down.
I marc up to me before turning back to the window.
"Please," o me. one ed, as t rengto front even me.
"Id like to talk to you," I said firmly. "I ask unless it ant.”
sig in t in before, ake Jamie out for New Years Eve.
ened as I told was on my mind.
turo me. I dont kno say no. Instead urohe window.
Even oo so speak.
Again I ran, again I didnt tire, my purpose givirengto go on. knog, and t to see w .
Before she could speak, I did.
"Is s; I asked, euperrified at time.
"Yes," tiously. "hen she woke up, she wondered where you were.”
I apologized for my dis mind leaving us alone. I o Jamies room, partially closing t me knoing.
"; s, "thank you for ing back.”
I pulled up a ext to aking igomac to cry.
"I ; I said.
"I kno t seem to anymore.”
"Its okay, really.”
Sed ly off t, then leaned forward and kissed her cheek as well.
"Do you love me?" I asked her.
S;Yes.”
"Do you me to be ; As I asked my beginning to race.
"Of course I do.”
"ill you do somethen?”
Sures. "I dont kno; she said.
"But if you could, would you?”
I ot adequately describe tensity of t moment.
Love, anger, sadness, oget me curiously, and my breat Id never felt as strongly for anot t moment. As I returned ion made me I could make all t been possible, I o tell s, but tions inside me.
"Yes," s someill full of promise. "I would.”
Finally getting trol of myself, I kissed my o ly running my fingers over tness of leness I saw in .
My t began to tig as I said, I k it o cure I ed to do was give sed.
It o do all along.
Jamie, I uood t o find. Sold me t outside Mr. Jenkinss office, t he play.
I smiled softly, and surned my affe squeeze of my rusting me in to do. Enced, I leaned closer and took a deep breat floh.
"ill you marry me?”
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